Growing & Learning

Hello! Whoever is reading this. Happy New Year! This past year has been filled with challenges, heartache, and overall it’s been a growing and learning experience for me.

b0uvww4iaaamjoiOne thing I learned this past year is loving who I am with all my flaws and knowing the person God has created. Learning to be okay with being me. You and I  can’t be okay with being ourselves if we choose to listen to those being critical toward us. There are hurting people walking around and most times people are dealing with their own personal issue and they are taking it out on us. Sometimes you can’t take it personal. Learn to love who you are despite the way people treat you. When you know who you are those critical people can’t get to your soul. I believe what God says about me more than anyone so that keeps me grounded. It’s more than just reading you have to really believe what God is saying and let it get into the core of your being so that it affects all that you do. I’m so ready to go deeper with God again because I know when I’m closer to Him. I make the right decisions and live my life to make Him proud. I can’t be the best version of myself without God’s help. He is the key to consistent change in my life. He helps me to be a better friend, Mama, and just an overall better person. I can’t let anyone sway my decision I made years ago to follow God with my whole being. I’m so thankful for Him giving me a second chance at this thing called life.

My life will never be perfect. I’m not looking for that “perfect” life. I’m looking for God’s help in this imperfect world. I’m leaning on Him to show me the way to live and not leaning on myself. Leaning on him to show me how to love others and forgive those that hurt my heart ( also to apologize to those that I hurt). I pray for God’s healing this year and his continuing guidance in my life. I want to be filled up with Him and follow His ways. With his help, I will continue to know who I am and love who I am by knowing HIM!




Cheers to 2017!




New day, New mind



I often hear the phrase at the start of a New Year… “New Year, New me.” I get why people say this, but what are people actively doing in their lives to change the new “me.” Are people just saying it because it sounds good? maybe. But what I am learning for myself is I don’t want a new “me.” I am thankful for how God created me. Years ago, I wasn’t thankful for how God created me because I hated myself. I let too many people take control of my mind and thoughts. I believed all the lies. (I think it’s important we teach our children to be kind to others. It starts at a young age where children start molding their minds to think a certain way. Be consisitent in their lives and encourage their hearts. Remind them that God loves everything about them even when someone says something unkind to them.)   It wasn’t until I met a man named Jesus who has made me feel so secure in myself that I’ve grown into a woman who now loves what He created and can confidently be there for others in a real way.  I promise you when you start to believe His truth over the lies your heart and mind begins to unfold into something real beautiful.

I believe in renewing our minds and that brings change in our circumstances and how we view ourselves. When you’re secure in who you are there is nothing that anyone can say because their validation is not important when you already validated by Jesus. He sees through all our weaknesses and still whispers, “come to me daughter. I want  you to know I still love you and I want you to be free from this sin. Let me help you.”

I’ve gone through some major hardships in 2015. I won’t go into details because I don’t believe that will help anything. I don’t blog to put people on blast. I blog to put Jesus on blast and how he can help through the most difficult times of one’s life. He is the ONLY one that will walk with you through the fire without leaving your side. I can trust Him to lead me the right way because He judges righteously. He teaches me grace and forgiveness behind what my flesh wants to do. I want do the opposite of what God expects. I get so stuck in my emotions that sometimes that takes over rather than me sitting quiet before the Lord and listen to the Holy Spirit. I want to led by the Spirit and not driven by my emotions.

I’m me, I’m free. I’ve flown into 2016 a free woman. Free from other’s control of my life. Sometimes we don’t even realize how much we allow other’s to control us. Break free. Don’t allow others to make you feel any other way than what God promises us. His word lasts forever. He says you are chosen, forgiven, accepted. (Ephesians 1-14) Don’t believe in people that spew tainted words about yourself, but believe in Jesus’ perfect words.



God bless you all!

Happy New Year!!!

Longing for God


We all experience times when God seems absent, and we long for the reassurance of his presence. I long for the real God of the Bible. I long for the God who loves, forgives, and brings change in people’s lives. Sometimes we let our circumstances in life perhaps the pain in our life to cloud his presence.  Jesus says the water he gives takes away our thirst. It becomes a perpetual spring within us and he gives eternal life. There is a bigger picture here. Jesus is the only person I will be accountable for my life. And for that reason I will try to deal with that circumstance and pain in my life by God’s guidance. His word guides me the do the right thing. Longing for people to make us fulfilled in life ends up draining us. I want to encourage you tonight to keep your eyes focused on Jesus despite the hurt you feel tonight. Be influenced by His character.  I’ve been reading a book called, “Taking out your emotional trash, face your feelings and build healthy relationships.” by Georgia Shaffer. She wrote about unfulfilled desires and here is a snippet of what she wrote,

“When we demand that another person safety, certainty, and fulfillment of our deepest desires, we turn from God to an idol for the fulfillment of our needs. When we turn from God, we inevitably demand of others the very things we miss in our relationship with God. If we don’t know his deep care and protection, then we will insist another human being provide what we lack.” 

In the last couple months I’ve longed for God and getting closer to Him. My husband has been away for the past 4 months, I’ve witnessed my kids missing their daddy, my Dad’s 10 year anniversary came Thanksgiving day, and I had a health scare. I dealt with all this without my best friend being present, but his prayers meant the world to me, because God is always present in our lives.  He has given me the strength to get through these trials. There were a few special friends that prayed for me. I love them to pieces. One of them I never met in person (love you Jennifer), but that’s the beauty of the Lord working out hearts together. We all love the Lord and we’re there for each other walking this journey of life together side by side.  I can’t thank them enough for being there for me in my darkest times. Their words of encouragement lifted up my spirits. So if you’re reading….Love you ladies!

There is hope friend…..

Freedom from addiction is possible

Reconciliation is possible

Forgiveness is possible

Loving each other despite our differences is possible

Being cancer free is possible

and it all comes through Jesus. I am sharing tonight God’s faithfulness in my life and His words of truth. Don’t give up. Hold onto His words closely. He brings freedom. I praise him tonight for all that he is doing in my life.

God wants you to experience who he is not just to know information about him. Seek him and he will satisfy your desire to know him intimately.

Psalm 63 

O God, you are my God,
    and I long for you.
My whole being desires you;
    like a dry, worn-out, and waterless land,
    my soul is thirsty for you.
Let me see you in the sanctuary;
    let me see how mighty and glorious you are.
Your constant love is better than life itself,
    and so I will praise you.
I will give you thanks as long as I live;
    I will raise my hands to you in prayer.
My soul will feast and be satisfied,
    and I will sing glad songs of praise to you.

As I lie in bed, I remember you;
    all night long I think of you,
    because you have always been my help.
In the shadow of your wings I sing for joy.
I cling to you,
    and your hand keeps me safe.

“Let the morning bring me word of Your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in You. Show me the way I should go, for to You I entrust my life.”Psalm 143:8

By His Grace,


The beach is calming to my soul.

I am a beach person. I’ve been living in a place for the past year surrounded by beaches!!  There’s been a lot of calming peaceful moments this summer, and there is something beautiful and special about the beach. It’s simplicity draws me in. I love seeing my children’s excitement when they play in the water & sand. For me, it’s a place I can gather my thoughts and be at peace.


For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,

for my hope is from him. Psalm 62:5 ESV

No words are needed {Link Up} with my lovely friend Jennifer.

FMF: Mess

I’ve been a mess with my priorities lately. I start taking college courses in a few weeks. I had some important tests to take this week so I decided to step back and unplug- it’s helped me to refocus in my mess.

“Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God’s place in your hearts.” 1 John 5:21 NLT

In the King James Version, it says, keep yourselves from idols. If I am being honest, there are ‘idols’ placed in my heart that needed removed asap. Well, not completely removed, but to refocus my time being spent on these idols. It was affecting precious time with Jesus, my children, communication with my husband, studying for my future career, and sleepless nights.  Idols that have sucked up my time and attention away from those who matter the most in my life. They were idols that came before God and family! (hard to admit that, but it’s the truth)  I’ve made some changes this week and it’s been great. I’ve been praying my little heart out and leaning toward God to guide me because it’s definitely a mess!  I love that MESS is part of the word MESSAGE because we always have a message to share and it usually comes during or after our mess. I wouldn’t be able to share this message with you if God didn’t take me through some mess. I used to think I had to go through my mess alone. Out of fear of judgement from others. But wow I realize everyone goes through the same mess as me and it’s okay to admit it.  It’s not about our mess per-say, it’s about Jesus being there to walk through it with us. It’s about walking with others through their mess and telling them it’s okay..I am a mess too!  The beauty of our mess…is being able to fix our eyes on the one who is overflowing with grace…who will help and not judge.




Joining other brave writers for Five Minute Friday hosted by

Lisa-Jo baker. Join us here, if interested! 🙂


P.S. Karen Welch (We are that family) has written a book called, Rhinestone Jesus. I can’t wait to get my hands on this.

Here is a snippet:

Rhinestone Jesus: Saying Yes to God When Sparkly, Safe Faith Is No Longer Enough, is proof that we actually can say yes long before we think we’re ready. We just need to be willing. – See more at:

I saw Kristen Welch speak at the INRL conference and her story captured my heart. I love how she encouraged Moms in their ordinary lives. We can say yes in our mess. “The reason God uses ordinary people is because he receives the glory.” Karen Welch.. Amen.


FMF: Friend

ImageWhat a friend we have in Jesus…Have you heard that song?? I love it! He knows our deepest secrets and sees us at our worst and best times. We can talk to him about ANYTHING and  it’s between you and Him. He is there always to listen, protect, heal, and guide you through all your messiness. You don’t have to be on your best behavior or put on a mask before you come to God. He already knows everything about you. He doesn’t judge you, but only love you and pour His grace on you. He is only the one that can make our dreams come true through prayers and he is the only one that can heal our wounds when nobody else can. Or to bring us joy when we feel alone. He truly cares about us.

His word is truth therefore we can put our trust in Him completely! What a privilege it is that he would entrust us with the title… ‘friend.’ Who are we to even be worthy of such? But through His obedience to God he made a way for us to have fellowship with the Father. {1 John 1:3} Friendships with people are a blessing. We need each other for encouraging, praying, reproving, growing, and running the race of faith together. One the best quotes I read about friendship in a book called, “Friendship-cultivating the relationships that enrich our lives by Marilyn Meberg”

The best kind of friendships in life are those who encourage us to be ourselves and love us despite our wrinkles and warts. They have a knack for drawing the best out of us and challenging us to grow into all we’re meant to be-in our journeys of life and faith.

I love that! It’s the foundation of friendship in my eyes. We should be genuine with our friends. Just letting them see the real you. And I must say I have a few like that. I thank the Lord for blessing my life with wonderful friends in real-life and online. I love in her book Marilyn says,

 “Jesus doesn’t want us to look at the surface level, but to look at the deeper issues of the heart.”

Amen! I love heart connections! Friends are a gift from God! They strengthen our hearts and sharpen us. However, God will be your greatest friend. He is the one you can count on the most!

Never forget that He will never leave us nor forsake us. Hebrews 13:5

That is a true friend.

Linking up with other FMF brave writers.


Join in with us here.

This weekend is the IN-RL conference. I can’t wait to tune in! You register here it’s FREE!

These women open up their lives and are brave to share their stores with us. Some of these women I have come to know through blogging. Their hearts and writing for Jesus are beautiful.  I love this community.  Check out the video.


A precious life.

0423142314 (1).jpgMy dear sister’s birthday was on Tuesday. She makes me smile really big!! Her life is a reminder that God gives second chances. It’s truly a miracle from God that she survived her last pregnancy. Ten years ago, my sister gave birth to her first daughter Daija. We assumed it would be a  celebration full of joy and excitement, but quickly it turned into a nightmare. Loss of blood which required a blood transfusion, kidney failure, and blind in one eye. I remember getting the call from my Mama and my heart sank! She told me her c-section didn’t go well. She explained everything that happened and my sister woke up blind in one eye. At this point I am shaky, terrified, and heart-broken! After I got off the phone with my Mom.  My husband and I packed our things and drove ten hours to Michigan. It was imperative that we were at my sister’s side.  On the way there, my stomach was in knots and my heart was sad that my sister was going through that. All I could do in those moments was pray to God that she would still be alive when we seen her. When we arrived at the hospital, she was back to her normal self. All that terror was over and she could see me. Her blindness went away. I gave her a huge hug and thanked God for my sister surviving all that trauma. However she had to endure dialysis from her kidney failure. It was sad to see my sister in pain. I am glad she had family there for comfort and support. We spent some time with my niece and I couldn’t stop staring at her. She was so precious.   0423142315.jpg My dad was alive at this time and he gave her a teddy bear, but not just any teddy bear, this stuffed animal sung the chorus to “Wind beneath my wings” by Bette Midler. My dad definitely brighten up everyone’s mood. What a special gift and memory we have in our hearts. We will never forget that time my Dad did that for my sister. He expressed his love through these words…”did you ever know that your my hero.” ah brings me to tears. God spared her life and I am so glad I’ve been able to create memories and spend the last ten years with her. This was not the first trauma my sister had to go through. Oh my sister’s aching heart! Her second pregnancy ended up being premature with my nephew. He weighed only 2 pounds. I vaguely remember that time,  but I am sure her heart was in pain to see her son in an incubator. Praise God we didn’t lose him. In some circumstances death happens unexpectedly. I think about how we almost lost my sister and then the loss of our Daddy unexpectedly. I think about what I would have done differently. It’s teaching me to pay more attention and value people’s lives and their hearts. To never give up on reaching my loved ones and others with the gospel (never stop praying for family, don’t give up hope).  It’s teaching me to not hold back my love, but to give it freely. To be more kind and never hold back an encouraging word—those words someone needs to hear. Who do you need to forgive today?? Are you still holding a grudge from years ago? Please ask God to help you let it go if you find it difficult.

Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. James 4:14

Remember to always tell and (if you can) show your loved ones how much you love and care for them. My sister’s life is precious to me because of what she endured and conquered.  I’ve had some wonderful memories with my sister since then and I can’t imagine her not being with us. But I thank the Lord that she is. I love you sister..cheers to many more years! Your life is a gift and you’re loved, chosen, and accepted by God. Chase after Him, He will never disappoint you. Your life proves how faithful God is.

 My sister’s precious family! I love them so much!

She is able to see her kids all grown up! 🙂

L to R: Justin, Matthew,  my sis, Ricco, Daija


 Thanks sis for your permission to let me tell your story. I believe it will inspire someone.

Linking up with Beth over at Simply Beth. She is doing the Love Dare. Go over and read her post. I love that book. It’s one I recommend for sure!

With His Love,